Friday is at last upon us! I’m heading out to go camping this weekend and I. can’t. wait. Campfires and coffee all weekend, please.
In the vein of my post earlier this week, this article has been really helpful in coming to terms with the concept of depression as a long-term illness.
But then I asked her, am I going to be on medication forever?
I remember her looking at me carefully. She asked if that idea upset me. I immediately said yes. Then she asked why. I didn’t have an answer right away. Maybe it was money? I hated that it was more expensive to keep me alive than it was for “normal” people. She nodded; that’s understandable. But were there any other reasons?
Finally, I said, “I guess I feel bad? Like I’m weak?”
She asked if I thought other people who take medication are weak. I shook my head immediately. Of course not. Then why did I think I was?
I related to so much of this so heartily. It’s really scary to think about things in terms of forever, especially with something as stigmatized as mental illness. It’s good to know that I’m not alone in the struggle.
2. Bill Murray’s rendition of Van Morrison’s When Will I Ever Learn to Live in God
This song speaks to me so much right now, and I love his honest and emotional rendering of it. The string arrangement is lovely, too.
3. The Night Game’s debut album
The Night Game has been the soundtrack to my summer, and they finally released their full album! I love it. Martin Johnson has a fantastic voice and all the songs have a kind of nostalgic, small town summer feel that leaves me with a really poignant feeling. My faves are Once in a Lifetime and Coffee and Cigarettes, but Bad Girls Don’t Cry is the grooviest.
I’m all true crime podcasts all the time right now, but this one in particular stood out to me. The story is just so fascinating, and the podcast is extremely well researched and produced. In this podcast, reporter Hedley Thomas dives into the disappearance of Lyn Dawson, a wife and mother from Sydney. Thomas takes a hard look at the problematic investigation, the sordid relationship between Lyn’s husband and his fifteen-year-old student Joanne, and the eerie closeness between Lyn’s husband and his twin brother. The result is a compelling, frustrating, and obsessing narrative.
How amazing are these designs? They range from spooky to cute to rustic, and there’s a not-small chance I’m buying that bison onesie for the child I don’t have yet.
As ever, thank you for stopping by. See you next week!